Jerk

Whut is in your CD player right now?

Some beats that I just bought, them joints is hot too.

Whut do you want to be when you grow up?

Successful

Whut is one thing you would change about yourself?

I need to quit drinking for awhile. Its not that I drink often, but when I do, I drink a lot and I need to stop that.

What turns you on?

A certain woman(whoever that is at the time) with intellegence, confidence, and a fine vodka wouldn't hurt the occasion.

Whut is important to you?

God, my family, money(moreso financial security), my close friends, not dying over something stupid, and making people happy.

Whut are you thinking about right now?

My thoughts slip between my album, money, where is Arsenio Hall at, and of course sex. I ain't gonna lie to you. That's just human nature, the key is not to act on it.

Whut makes you cry?

I don't cry.

Whut inspires you?

My mother, that the biggest hustler I know. She has sacrificed so much for me and my brothers, I could never begin to pay her back.

Whut is the album going to sound like?

Different. Its going to have alot of different things on there. If you like shake yo ass songs, if you like songs with lyrical content, if you like things you can sit and listen to for deep meaningful things, or if you like songs that put you in a good mood, this is the album for you. "Freedom of Speech" will be out soon.

Oompa, Loompa, Opidy, Do, I have the perfect puzzle for you......

I back to take the sugar out of you sweet ass Willy Wonka niggas. Yeah, I know its been over a month but hussling isn't easy, believe me. Pretty soon I'm gonna have the shoe game, the marketing game, the hand bag game, and the rap game on freeze. So busy that I haven't had a chance to reflect on the many things that have happened to me. Shit, I have to schedule time for my daliy showers. But I'm back, but just for now. No job for a week, doesn't mean no work for a week. With shoes to sell and studio time booked this week is already packed. I did want to go on a date or something before I left,but fuck it now. Why spend money when you can make money.

I ain't gonna keep yall long, but I got a couple of things on my mind. Why come the way people talk is not even close to what they act like? I know many people like that. I don't get it at all. Don't yo ass dare look down on me, just because you come from this place and went to this school and your parents work here and you belong to this frat or sorority.......... You is probably just as fucked up as me, probably worst because of all those things. Now some of you are probably like, DJ you are the worst person to speak on this, you are the most schizo person I know. And if you think of me as that you are wrong. With me what you see is what you get. I'm a little off kilter, but I have a good heart. I am loyal to those that are loyal to me, and if I have it and you need it, its yours. My bond is my word, and I have a slew of people that can back that up. While on the other hand, a lot of cats I know will say they do this and say they do that, but in reality they don't do shit.Then there are those cats that say that they are Christians and praise God, and I am so holy, but they are some of the wildest cats I've ever met in my life. Now I'm no saint, but I will say this, I believe in God, he's the reason for everything down here, and without him I am nothing. He's leading me right now.I try to learn the various teachings in his word and try to apply them in my life. While on the other hand these other cats.... I'm not going to go there, I think you get the picture. Now I'm not trying to rain on your holy ghost parade, but my thing is if you say that you're living for the lord, act like it. Ask yourself, what would Jesus do. Would Jesus be at the club until six in the morning and show up hungover to Sunday service, I don't think so. Would Jesus say he was going to do something and not do it simply because he didn't want to, of course not. So if you talking all that Christian and holy talk, have the walk to back it up. Other than that shut ya ass up and find something else to talk about.

Other than that, I'm in a wierd place right now. I still feel that I am the shy, quiet young boy that I have always been Just a little older. However, the feedback I've gotten as of late, many have firmly disagreed with that view. I am loud boisterous, proud, out-going, arrogant, cocky, confident, and even egotistical, and my personal favorite borderline asshole. But I must explain a little bit of background on me for any of this to make sense. Yes, I still am quiet, shy, even a bit of a recluse, but I also see that I have the power to be those other things too. Its not really my fault tho. For me to come from ghetto ass Gary, Indiana and be able to fratinize and hold my own with cats from Harvard, Cornell, Princeton, Duke, and Rutgers, I can't help but think that I don't belong there. Then I begin to laugh because I know I don't belong. I've sat next to millionaires, and VPs and all these types of things and to me its all like wow. For me to come from nothing and be on the cusp of having everything at this age, when people the same age as me from the same place are having babies, going to fight in Iraq, getting strung out on drugs, can't find a job,contracting STDs, to even getting shot dead in the street, its a huge fucking deal. Because I know that I was one or two decisions from where they are. Standing on the corner saying should've could've and would've, could be my life story right now, but its not. So excuse me for being LOUD about the fact that I'm from the G. So pardon me for being PROUD of the fact that I have above a 3 GPA at a Big Ten school. As for my CONFIDENCE we won't even go there. Just show love and in a few years help to celebrate another hood success story.

Thanks INROADS

Mic check one, two, one, two... chea.....

Its feels so good to be back. I'm sitting here listening to Luther's Greatest Hits, and even before his passing I've felt that he is (was) one of the greatest of all time.With that said moving on. Question, what do you do when money isn't enough? For a while I've been observing the world around me and I've realized that I'm surrounded by very unhappy and very unlucky people. Everybody is unhappy with what they have and are trying to get more and get over when they can. Now don't get it twisted, I'm not in college for my health, but at the same time I'm not knocking the next man over to get ahead. I'm not jealous of what the next man has and I'm not trying to take the next man's woman (not on purpose at least). But its really messed up how people spend their whole lives in pursuit of something that they think will make them happy, and either way it turns out they will be dissapointed. If they get it, it won't be all they hoped it would be and if they don't get it they will spend the remainder of their days in sorrow and regret about the thing that they wanted and couldn't get. Well, by this point you are probably asking yourself, DJ, what makes you different from the people around you? I'm glad you asked, I find happiness in the little things. For instance if I have some gatorade, air conditioning, and some chicken I'm happy.When I look down and see that I have ten fingers and ten toes and I'm breathing without a machine I'm happy. Little things like that make me happy or at least feel content with life.  Because money, clothes, women, jewelry,etc those things can't bring you happiness. It starts within.

R.I.P. Luther Vandross 1951-2005

Ladies and gentleman, dogs, cats ,dolphins, rats, armadillos, and crack babies.. I am back once again. I know its been a month but corporate America still hasn't softened ya boy. Gotta make this quick I gotta be up at 4 and its already 9. First off, I have to say that there is an exception to everything and even I, yes I can be wrong at times. But damn this is one time I wish I was right, now that I know what was behind the statement, I feel sorry for the person. Shit, I'll get over it. Also, the other thing I was wrong about, the fact that I couldn't find a woman that could hold my attention longer that three seconds, I was wrong yes, but I still feel just in my statement so I will still believe it until another woman comes along and changes the opinion that I have.

On another tip, this work shit is trying. The same shit that happens in the G and at Purdue, happens in corporate America too. I guess no matter where you go people are people and bullshit will follow. The same racism and sexism I've seen all my life will not be vanqished in my lifetime and probably not my children's either.  The saying is true the more money you make the more problems come your way. But I still feel like I'm getting over on these people, most of the other interns have money, working on there masters somewhere, go to an Ivy League school, or are there because there parents work there. As for me the poor black ghetto trash that you all know and love (or hate) in right in the middle of all of that. The only black intern may I add (and the handsomest, sexiest hard working.....) I don't know, it seems like some of the people in there don't want me there. I read in between the lines of what they say, and everything that they say to me, feels like it has some type of racial tone to it. Maybe I'm just paranoid. Anyway that's enough for now I'll holla at yall soon, next time I'll have something thought provoking.